Sunday, February 3, 2008

he's in control, not me.

Don't you ever wish that you could defeat all laws and just save the world? So much is happening, has happened and will happen and I wish that I could do more than just watch from the sidelines.

I wish I could jump in, I wish that I could help others by jumping into their skin and living out all of the tough parts for them, but I can't. All I can do is listen, be concerned and pray. It doesn't sound like much at all.

Why must we wait for God to make the world perfect? Couldn't Jesus have died and then instantly, ka-BAM! The world would be this perfect, happy place. I know that hard time build character, but can't their be another way to learn. Why must we learn only through the tough times. Why are spiritual "highs" normally amidst life downfalls? Why can't I just live the perfect life and build character, and grow in my relationship with Christ. Why must we go through the bad in order to get to the good. Can't we just skip it all?

So yeah, I wish I could do more, I wish I could just save the world, but I can't. No one can but Him and it is Him who I must look to. I must give Him all of my doubts, worries and uncertainties and forget about them. Forget them and trust Him.

1 comment:

Ellen said...

sometimes its hard to just put your trust in Him eh? You've made a big step by acknowledging that you are not the one that is in control, and you never know where life's going to take you. I think we all feel like that sometimes. Love ya lots!